Waiting....

Today I worked from 9:40a.m. to 5:10p.m. at the great Coldstone Creamery. Can life get any greater than this?
This Thursday through Sunday is our fall break, and instead of going home, I decided to pick up a few extra hours.  Crystal is staying with Danny at the pastor's house for fall break, so i've been holding down the fort here at the apartment. It is amazing what your mind will think about when you are all alone for a full 4 days! Well, it has only been three so far. the Lord has really been challenging me this semester. I have not seen my fiancé for almost 2 months now. It has been extremely difficult. I realize that throughout my relationship with the most amazing person in this entire world, I have become to dependent on him, rather than being dependent on God.
The Lord is teaching me that throughout this time I need to learn that I cannot rely on my fiancé to make me happy. Yes, we have amazing moments and fun times but true joy can only be found in the Lord and He needs to be the center of everything. The Lord needs to be our everything. It is so hard to keep priorities straight in a world full of distractions. It is easy to take our eyes off the goal of what really matters in life. That is our relationship with God. There is so much more to life... if we would only realize what amazing things the Lord could do in us, if we just gave Him complete control of our lives, instead of trying to do it all on our own. I wrote a song this semester called, "I run to you." Everytime I sing it, I can barely get through the words, they are completely from the Lord and so precious and full of passion and fire and truth. 
My professor here at North Central University, Dr. Watson, would tell me every class period, "People will fail you, but God is always faithful." That statement is so true. I think if people would take hold of that quote, then we would not be so distracted and disturbed by what others do around us. As long as we are in check with the Lord's will and remain firm in what is right, the Lord's love is enough.
The title of this blog is called "Waiting." I chose that word because that is what I feel like I am doing, waiting to graduate, waiting to get married, waiting for the next step, waiting for a word from God, waiting waiting waiting. Well, as John Waller puts it, "While i'm waiting, I will serve you." I feel as though lately, I have been waiting with an attitude of, "this is taking forever!!!!" Instead of filling up this precious time I have to communicate with the Lord on a deeper level. I have always told myself I never want to be comfortable with my relationship with the Lord. I will never outgrow God, I am always going to need more of Him to get me to where He wants me to be. Where is that? sitting by His side at the throne.
This road that we Christians are on, is the most challenging, difficult, most rewarding road that the Lord could have allowed us to follow. I feel as though we take advantage of God's unfailing love and grace. His divine faithfulness and mercy. You know He will never leave us? I love the story about the footprints in the sand. How the person who was walking on a beach with the Lord and there were 2 sets of footprints and all of the sudden when trouble and chaos surrounded this person's life there were only one set of footprints. This person cried out to God and kept asking why the Lord could have left them during the hardest most challenging storms in his life. The Lord said, "My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints in the sand.... it was then that I carried you." That is just like us isn't it? Crying out to God, begging, pleading, screaming and asking how could He leave us, how could He just walk away in our greatest time of need. What we need to realize is that if we would just sit and listen... We would begin to feel his Holy Spirit moving within us. He is ready and willing to speak. It is us who walk away from Him, it is us who don't make time for Him, it is us who crucified Him on the cross. Every lie, every unclean thought, every time we deceived or misled, we were pounding in those nails..... we are the reason that He had to die so that we might live a life full and rich with His Holy Spirit living within us, speaking words of affirmation and peace, receiving extraordinary gifts that were promised to us, having the joy of the Lord as our strength, and we sit here and complain about God not being there for us??? doesn't make any sense to me.... I feel as though we allow satan to blind us from the big picture. We are so molded into the ways of this world we don't have "time" to see what God really meant when He gave us another chance.
My favorite verse is Romans 2:12, "Do not  conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- His good, pleasing, and perfect will." To me, this verse says it all. We were born to stand out. In order to stand out we need to allow the Lord to be in every area of our lives so that He may transform us into becoming more and more like Him. We will be able to TEST and APPROVE what God's WILL is for OUR LIVES! His GOOD, PLEASING, and PERFECT will. Isn't that what every one wants? To be called to something great, beyond our own dreams? The truth is.... we all are called to something greater. It's just.... what are we willing to do.... to sacrifice.... to change..... to submit..... to let go....

The Lord has given us free will.... its precious. I dont know about you, but at the end of my life, I don't want to be thinking ... oh i wish i would of told this person... i wish i would have done this ... i wish i would of done that....

When I go home to be with my loving heavenly Father I want Him to look me in the eyes and say, "Well done my good and faithful servant... you have made me proud.. I love you so much. Thank-you for choosing the life I created you for. Thank-you for standing up for Me and making me your everything."

What would The Lord say to each of us... right now at this very moment... if we were to die....

Would you do anything differently?